A day in the life of a Lying Politician…

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Who can we trust?

Over the last few weeks I’ve come across several people saying “all politicians lie” as if this is an excusable failing that can be allowed those who are aiming to rule the country.

Does this make lying the right thing to do in order to gain or retain power?  Is truth really expendable?

These ideas raise some difficult issues:

How do lying politicians (and others who favour lying) manage to keep lying out of other areas of their lives?

If they encourage lying – and are seen to encourage lying – how do they themselves decide who to trust?  How do they cope with daily life?

A behind the scenes look…

A day in the life of a Lying Politician

Breakfast:  The Lying Politician* has got up early in order to have toast and coffee with his wife.  She tells him that she will be spending the morning at the gym with her personal trainer, followed by lunch with a friend and an afternoon’s shopping.

But is she telling the truth?

Who can he trust?

A few months ago the LP (Lying Politician) employed a Private Investigator to track his wife for 3 weeks.  He ought to have been reassured by the report and photos which showed his wife leading a completely blameless life.  Even her personal trainer looked somewhat elderly and overweight.

But was the Private Investigator telling the truth?

Who can he trust?

What if his wife had paid the Private Investigator even more money to produce the report and photos?  Should he have employed a second Private Investigator to report on the first one?  And a third Private Investigator to check on the first two?  And a fourth… The LP envisages a long line of Private Investigators trailing each other around London at his expense…

Morning: At 10 o’clock the LP has a dentist appointment.  Last year the LP was suffering from mild toothache and visited his dentist who ordered X rays and a series of expensive investigations.  The dentist recommended several operations and as a result most of the LP’s teeth are no longer his own.

But was he telling the truth?

Did he really need those operations? Were the X rays even his?  Today the dentist is extolling the virtues of a completely new set of dentures that seem just like your own teeth…

Who can he trust?

Work:  Obviously the LP’s work involves a lot of other lying politicians giving it a striking resemblance to the television game show “Would I lie to you?”  but without the humour. As no one holds up the truth and lie cards the LP never finds out if he has guessed correctly.

Who can he trust?

The LP quickly discards the idea of flying pigs that can make their own way to the abattoir thus cutting congestion on the roads – surely that can’t be true?  However, there is a worrying ring of truth to the report that much of the chicken in a certain restaurant’s sandwiches is actually rat (free meat caught on the premises.)

Lunch: The LP decides against his usual chicken mayonnaise sandwich and goes for the vegetarian option instead.

But perhaps even the lettuce is contaminated?

Who can he trust?

Home: The LP stops on the way home to get cash out for the following day.  (For some reason few people will accept his credit card.) As he goes in the phone rings and he absent mindedly puts the cash down on the kitchen worktop while he answers the call. When he next looks, it has vanished.

The LP goes into the living room where his three children are sitting glued to their phones.

Quite rightly he never, ever trusts his children, but he finds himself asking the question anyway:

“Do any of you know what has happened to my cash? It was in the kitchen on the worktop.”

Without looking up his children respond in unison: “The dog ate it.”

The LP has taught his children that Lying is the Way to Gain Power and Get Ahead and they have taken him at his word.  (It is possibly the only thing he has ever said that they actually believe.)

He tries hard to make them see that lies need to be plausible and that even if they lie to everyone else, they should not be lying to him.  His children look up momentarily, before returning their attention to their phones.  They are baffled – what can he be getting at?  They are all £50 richer and they didn’t even need to think up a new lie.

Evening: When the LP goes into his study, he finds that his wife has placed the children’s school reports on his desk.  The children go to a very expensive private school and each of them takes about six extras a week.

The reports describe his children as brilliant students, natural leaders, kind, caring and honest.  Every teacher comments on the wonderful progress they have made over the last term.

But who can he trust?

He recently discovered that after a term of music lessons his daughter still did not know which way up to hold her violin and that his oldest son was unaware that frogs were once tadpoles.

As he gets ready for bed it occurs to him that when he asks the children what they have been doing at school all day and they respond “Nothing” they might, for once, be telling the truth…

How can he decide between truth and lies?

Who can he trust?

*It is perfectly possible that the Lying Politician is not a white, straight man.

Playing the labyrinth

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Annie, aged 9, is walking the labyrinth.

Today’s story has been about Wangari Maathai planting trees across Kenya and everyone has been asked to take something into the labyrinth that reminds them of the natural world.  Annie has chosen a lemon and some bark.  She has placed the bark at a junction and the lemon in the centre and collected a tiny tree button to take back with her.

As an adult walking the labyrinth, I walk straight in and straight out.  I follow the rules, trying to focus on what has been asked.  It is a peaceful and reflective experience.

On her way out, Annie is stopping at every junction.

“Where am I?” she muses out loud.  “Am I going in or coming out?  Should I go this way or the other way?  I know I’ll go this way,” she adds choosing the way that leads back to the centre.

I know that she is doing this in part to wind up her friend Tom, who is waiting impatiently for his turn.  In this she is successful.

“Hurry up!” he calls to her, leaping from one foot to another. “Don’t go back again!  Oh, come on!”

I tell Tom that it is up to Annie how she walks the labyrinth and he needs to let her be.  He stops talking to her and tries to contain himself.  Annie glances at us, and continues on her way, backwards and forwards, making each junction a decision point.

And I wonder, as I frequently do in children’s ministry, how much should I intervene?

It is difficult to make the labyrinth a quiet personal experience in this room.  The children range in age from a few months to 12 years and there are too many other activities going on – planting trees, painting, craft, sand, free play. It is a noisy room acoustically; when I tell the story to those who come later it can be hard to make myself heard.  It probably doesn’t help that I frequently get up from my seat by the labyrinth to replenish craft supplies or talk to a child who has brought something to show me.

It seemed right to stop Tom interacting with Annie so that the labyrinth remains a personal experience.  But is there a right or wrong way to walk it?  Should I be insisting that the children walk slowly in silence?  Sometimes they do.  At others there seems to be an eager rush to take in whatever they have chosen.  Even the smallest children are keen to have a turn.

Did it matter that Annie seemed to be playing to the audience?  When I subdued Tom did it help her to focus on her own experience?  I don’t know.

But it seems to me now that real life is far more like Annie’s way of walking the labyrinth than mine.  Perhaps I should take more time to stop and wonder at the junctions?

A story like Maria’s Part 6: Reconciliation and forgiveness?

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A story like Maria’s is an exploration of bullying in churches in six parts.  You can read Part 1 here: A story like Maria’s: Part 1

Reconciliation

Is it possible for this story to have a happy ending?  Is reconciliation possible?

The answer is yes but it depends on several factors:

1 The diocese needs to be committed to reconciliation, resilience and how to deal with conflict.  Some dioceses have advisers on these issues. There also needs to be ways in which churches can access this help and someone outside their church to help them with the process.

2 The suggestion about reconciliation needs to come from someone above Zoe in the hierarchy – the area dean, the archdeacon or the bishop.  She is unlikely to take much notice of anyone she sees as below her.

3 All parties need to actively want reconciliation. This isn’t something you can force someone into.

4 Why is Zoe bullying?  This is crucial.  It may be that lack of experience or poor training has given her the impression that this is the best way to manage volunteers.

It may be that she feels inadequate and is so terrified of getting things wrong that she has created this authoritarian persona to hide behind. She realises that what has happened is wrong but has no idea how to put things right.

It may be that Zoe sees the problems (and Maria) as belonging to the past.  She does not engage with anyone who wants to talk about Maria and seems surprised that they want to do so.  Perhaps she is concentrating so much on changing the church and moving on that she is unaware of the impact her actions have had on the present.   Her lack of awareness may be due to overwork or to focusing only on the positive.   An increase in numbers could look like justification by success.

It may be that she is a narcissist. Unable to empathise or see people as real, she is prepared to manipulate everyone around her to get her own way.

5 Both Zoe and Maria would need to accept that they might find things out about themselves that they would rather not know.  They may both need to change aspects of their behaviour.

6 Zoe will need to give up some of her power.  At the moment, the power in the church is weighted towards Zoe. She is the incumbent, the person in charge, with the authority to make decisions about the church.  If reconciliation is going to work, Zoe and Maria need to be able to meet as equals.  If the power remains weighted towards Zoe, then the bullying will only be exacerbated.

Forgiveness

Several Christian friends tell Maria that she needs to forgive Zoe.

“Forgiveness is at the heart of Christianity,” says one.

“Christians must be prepared to forgive,” says another.

One friend has taken to posting inspirational quotes about forgiveness on her Facebook page.  “Forgiveness is the fragrance that the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it.” Maria grits her teeth and hits the like button.

Theoretically Maria knows all this is true but putting it into practice is something else.

“How do I do it?” she wails to Clare. “It’s months now.  I want to forgive Zoe but I’m still so angry.  It’s the injustice of it all.”

Clare listens and prays and tells Maria about her own experiences.  “It’s ongoing. Just when you think you’ve forgiven someone, something happens and you have to start all over again from scratch.  I find it helps if I can imagine myself in their shoes. I try to understand why they did what they did.”

“I can’t imagine myself in Zoe’s shoes,” says Maria.  “I don’t understand her at all.  It’s not just me, it’s the effect on everyone else, my family, people at church, the dementia group.”  She pauses and giggles.   “Especially not those awful crocodile sandals with the snapping teeth.”

“Sometimes I think it’s the first step that is the hardest,” says Clare.  “You just have to wait and one day that first step will be shown to you.”

Maria tries to pray for Zoe.  She hopes she doesn’t wish Zoe any actual harm.  What she would like is for Zoe to be “alive and well and somewhere else.”  This is unlikely to happen; Zoe seems to be popping up everywhere.

Maria finds herself at the annual parish meeting, where all the local community groups get the chance to talk about the past year.  She has come to give the WI report. In the past the churchwardens have given the church report, but this year Zoe has come herself. If Maria had realised this, she would have stayed away but it is too late now.

Zoe is beaming and expounding on the successes of the year the Sunshine Club has 30 regular children and families, the Sunset Club has 20 elderly people most weeks, numbers are up significantly at All Age Worship.  She thanks everyone profusely in detail and says that she knows everyone is having fun by the big smiles she sees wherever she goes.

Is this what success at church looks like? wonders Maria. Is success just about smiles and statistics?

This is something she thinks about a lot over the next few weeks.  She tries to make more time for prayer and reflection.

But it isn’t until she goes to a candlelit evensong in the cathedral that she realises that no, it isn’t like that at all.

For Maria the church is like a stream of living water, existing through all times and all places.  She only has to step forward to be part of it.  However much the institutional church tries to contain and manage it, somewhere the living water breaks free.  No one can take the living water away from her. No one can exclude her.

Maria is aware of the Holy Spirit when she prays with Clare on Wednesdays, the hands of Jesus at the healing service and the presence of the Creator when she takes her dog on early morning walks.

Listening and laughing with Eve, sitting with Jane as she faces yet another anniversary, the dementia group singing along to Buddy Holly are all times when she can pause and let God come close.

She is not alone.  There are times, especially when she prays alone in a remote corner of the church, that she is aware of being part of a great crowd of people all journeying together.  No one has ever been promised an easy journey, but she is not alone.

It may be that Zoe has these experiences too but if she does, they are not reflected in her current focus on status, authority, success and fun.   Maria wonders if Zoe has lost her way in her drive towards success.

Perhaps she should be feeling sorry for Zoe?

Perhaps this is the first step towards forgiveness?

And then again perhaps it isn’t… Is forgiveness even possible without justice?

 

A story like Maria’s Part 5: What next?

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A story like Maria’s is an exploration of bullying in churches in six parts.  You can read Part 1 here: A story like Maria’s: Part 1

As the weeks and months go on, it becomes clear that Maria isn’t going to be reinstated as pastoral care leader.  It’s also unlikely that she is going to be able to do any pastoral visiting on behalf of the church.

So what does the future look like?

I’ve considered four possible futures for Maria.  Three of them assume that Maria has a choice, the first is beyond her control.  There is no simple solution. All present difficulties for Maria and the church.

Possible future 1: Loss

In this possible future Maria has no choice.

She has experienced bullying in the past and this makes her vulnerable to bullying in the present.  Her experience with Zoe re-opens unhealed wounds.

Despite the support of family and friends, she finds what has happened deeply painful.  Even the most resilient person can find bullying has taken over their life; for Maria it has become all encompassing.

Her thoughts run in circles. Perhaps everything Zoe said was true?  Perhaps everyone really sees her as Zoe sees her: a critical loner who messes up relationships and blocks her church from moving forward.  Perhaps even God sees her like this?

Maria’s identity and relationship with God are bound up in her pastoral care role. Without it she is cast adrift.  Everything, including going into work at the library, becomes too much effort.   Lack of sleep and ongoing stress turn her circles into a downward spiral.

Eventually Peter insists that she goes to the doctor, who signs her off work, prescribes antidepressants and suggests counselling.

For weeks Maria isolates herself: even the thought of encountering Zoe or anyone from church makes her feel sick.  But the worst thing is the loss of her relationship with God. She stops going to church.  Friends struggle to cope with her bitterness and anger.

At church people ask her friends about her in hushed voices.  For many Maria has become the elephant in the room that is not spoken about.  Although no one admits it, the church’s confidence is dented.  Is it really this easy to stop going to church after twenty years? What should the church, as the church, be doing about Maria? Who should she be turning to for pastoral care and spiritual support?

Possible future 2: Changing church

This (and the other two possible futures) show Maria as sufficiently able to cope without needing time off work or antidepressants (though the counselling might be useful).

Several months have gone by and Maria is wondering what she should do next.

There seems to be little point in staying at St Augustine’s; she is never going to meet Zoe’s criteria for someone who is able to use their gifts in the church.  The new strategic vision is in place but still has the faults identified by Maria and a few others. It’s clear that critical voices will not be accepted.  Perhaps the time has come to go elsewhere? For the first time in twenty years, Maria is looking for a new church.

Maria first tries St Matthew’s about three miles away.  It is another Anglican church in the same diocese and deanery as St Augustine’s.  The service is worshipful and friendly but larger and more evangelical than she is used to; she doesn’t feel all that comfortable with the half hour of praise songs that begin the service.    The woman she sits next to introduces herself and welcomes her and asks where she is from. When Maria replies, she says she knows several people from St Augustine’s through the Deanery Lent course. Perhaps Maria knows them too?  She invites her to stay for coffee, but Maria just wants to go home.

As she leaves the vicar shakes her hand warmly; he also asks her where she is from.  When she tells him, his expression changes momentarily and she wonders if Zoe has said anything at clergy meetings.  Even if she hasn’t, she suspects the vicar will be asking about her when he next meets Zoe.  She doesn’t go back.

Over the following weeks Maria tries out a few more churches but eventually ends up at St Swithin’s which is about ten miles away.  It’s in a different diocese and there seems no contact with Zoe or St Augustine’s.  Maria finds the services quiet and peaceful and the people friendly without being over curious.

It takes some weeks before she feels confident enough to stay for coffee and several months before she feels able to say more than a polite hello to the vicar.  Maria has lost confidence in the church and the clergy.  Eventually someone asks her to help with the weekly lunch club for the elderly and Maria begins to feel that she might have a place there.

It isn’t that simple though.  Maria is bringing a lot of baggage with her to St Swithin’s.  Will they be able to cope with it? It takes her a long time to start to settle in and even when she does it isn’t her community.  She doesn’t meet the congregation except in church. When the talk at coffee time is about the proposed new executive housing, she can sympathise, but it isn’t her concern.

At home she is still part of her local community, most of whom want to know why she doesn’t go to St Augustine’s anymore and where she is going now.  Many people want to share their own view of Zoe and what is happening at church; it gets very wearing.

Maria finds that the church building has become a no go area.  Whereas she used to pop in for a quick pray, just going past it now makes her feel sick. She finds that she is trying to avoid it and even takes a longer route to work so that she can avoid it.  When she sees Zoe walking her dog at the park, she leaves immediately.

Possible future 3: Changing denomination 

Maria’s community has a small but friendly United Reformed Church and she knows many of the members through joint activities.  Now that she no longer feels able to go to St Augustine’s she thinks about worshipping there.

The people at the United Reformed Church make her welcome. As they are local many of them know something about what is going on and they refrain from asking her too many questions.  Slowly Maria starts to relax.  She already knows the minister slightly and finds him quiet and friendly.  He is only there once a month as he is responsible for several other churches which are quite far apart geographically.  Eventually he suggests a meeting and Maria is able to talk about what happened to her and receive caring support.

The minister knows several people who live locally and who would appreciate a visit from Maria; he can see how well she relates to the elderly members of the congregation.  He is also interested in the dementia group. Several months have gone by and it is clear that St Augustine’s Sunset Group is not specialist enough for people with dementia and their carers.  He sees no reason why Maria should not start up a small low key dementia group; he does not think there will be any conflict of interest with what St Augustine’s are doing.

This may seem a positive future, but difficulties remain.  People still want to know why Maria is no longer at St Augustine’s.  The worship is friendly, but it isn’t her preferred style.  It may cause friction between the two churches, who are both trying to serve the same community.  Maria stays away from joint events like Remembrance Sunday and the annual carols.  She tries to avoid the church building, Zoe and several members of the congregation.  Just catching sight of one them in the supermarket can set her thinking about the bullying all over again.  It is by no means over…

Possible future 4: Staying put

Maria has worshipped at St Augustine’s for over twenty years.  She simply does not see how she can uproot herself from all the friendship and fellowship that she has found there.  On Sundays she takes Eve, her elderly neighbour to services.  She can’t think of anyone else who would take her place. Why should Eve lose out because of what has happened?

Maria does not see why she should be bullied out.  It is wrong, she feels, to give into bullies.  Unchecked they will carry on bullying.

Staying put means that the church does not become a no go area.  Maria continues to pop in for quiet times of prayer; if anything, they increase.

The congregation divides into those who never talk to Maria, those who talk to her when Zoe isn’t around and those who carry on talking to her regardless.  Maria is especially grateful for this last group. It may be a cliché to say you know who your real friends are but this is how it feels.  She has sufficient friends not to feel lonely at coffee time, but she does feel out of things. The life of St Augustine’s carries on, but Maria is no longer part of it in the same way.

Zoe herself rarely talks to Maria; she is far too busy at coffee time to give her any attention.  Maria is still helping out with the South American project and Zoe pauses to thank her one day when she is doing the teas for the bazaar.

“My mum really misses you.  She keeps asking why you haven’t visited,” says Joan’s daughter who has come into the library specially to ask about this.  Maria discovers that no one from church now visits Joan.  It seems miserable to leave her unvisited, so she goes to see her and before long has gone back to visiting her regularly.  She has always kept in contact with Eve, her elderly neighbour.  A chance meeting with Jane, the bereaved mum, makes Maria think that she needs support and she is soon going round every Thursday for coffee.

When Zoe finds out about these visits, she writes a piece for the parish magazine about St Augustine’s pastoral care team, listing exactly who the members are and how they are the only people who are allowed to visit on behalf of the church.  The people Maria visits do not care.

The local WI have decided that this year will be Dementia Awareness Year.  They ask Maria to talk to them about it.  Afterwards they are so fired with enthusiasm that they ask her if she would be prepared to start a dementia group on behalf of the WI.  Even the few churchgoers on the WI cannot see a problem with conflict of interest.  Soon other WIs are asking Maria to come and talk to them about dementia awareness.

In this future Maria has stayed with her church and is able to continue with her ministry, even if it is not supported by the church.  But although visitors to the church may be unaware of division it is still there, for no one has done anything towards healing and reconciliation. It is hard for a divided church to work for the kingdom.  It is also hard for Maria to avoid becoming a focus for the disaffected.  It’s not even clear that she should do so.

As in the first possible future, Maria has no one to turn to for pastoral care and spiritual support.  She is effectively priestless.

A story like Maria’s Part 4: Support and impact: the church

A story like Maria’s is an exploration of bullying in churches in six parts.  You can read Part 1 here: A story like Maria’s: Part 1

When Maria and her friend Clare discuss what has happened, Clare suggests that the best person to approach in the church is Neil, the reader (Licensed Lay Minister).  Maria agrees, she knows that Neil also has reservations about some of the things that Zoe is doing. It is possibly not a coincidence that he was absent from the ministry team meeting where the new rotas and services were discussed.

Although Neil knows some of what has happened, he has not realised the extent and he is deeply concerned about what has been going on.  After prayerful consideration he decides that the best people to help resolve this situation are Beth and Jack, the churchwardens.

Beth and Jack are in a difficult position.  They like Zoe and think that she is having a really positive effect on some aspects of church life. The Sunrise Club for toddlers and carers is bringing new, younger people into contact with the church. As well Zoe’s ideas, and the fact that she has two children of her own, are revitalising the All Age services.   The PCC and the readers have had an awayday to discuss the new strategic vision.  While Beth has a few reservations about what she privately thinks is a lot of waffle, Jack is very positive and feels the day was inspirational.

They also like Maria but think there is an element of truth in some of Zoe’s comments – Maria can be quite critical at times and it’s clear she isn’t totally in favour of the new strategic vision.

As well they have a duty to the church.  The last thing they want is dissension in the church, with people taking sides.  Privately they hope this is a blip and that everything will blow over without any fuss. They have more than enough to do sorting all the churchwarden’s jobs: the new roof for the church, the visit of the diocesan financial adviser and the new strategic vision which is going to need a lot of work.

However, they have a lot of respect for Neil and they can see how concerned he is. They agree to meet with Maria and hear what she has to say.

Maria feels that Beth and Jack listen to her. They discuss what to do next.  Beth and Jack agree to meet with Zoe and see if things can be resolved.

Zoe is astonished that the churchwardens want to talk about the situation with Maria.  As far as she is concerned, they are in separate boxes and there is no need for any overlap.  She points out that Maria is part of the ministry team and so she is the priest’s responsibility not the churchwardens’. In any case this is a temporary problem, hopefully Maria will be back doing pastoral care very soon after she has had time for rest and reflection.  There is no need for the churchwardens to be concerned.

Jack and Beth are reassured but when several weeks have gone by and there is no change in Maria’s situation, Beth tries to talk to Zoe again. Zoe says that as far as she is concerned nothing has changed, Maria still needs more time.  Beth asks what it is that Maria needs more time for, but Zoe’s response is vague.

Jack and Beth talk to Neil.  They are all reluctant to escalate things, but Neil is clear that Maria needs support and that the situation does need attention.  Jack suggests speaking to Paula, the area dean who is the next person up from Zoe in the church hierarchy.   They agree that Neil is the person best placed to do this. When he sees Paula at a deanery meeting, he asks if he can come and talk to her.

Paula’s experience of church bullying is from a different perspective. At her last church there was a churchwarden who had been there for 30 years and did his best to block any changes that Paula and others wanted to make.  She knows first-hand just how easy it is for a bullying member of the laity to make the priest’s life a misery.  PCC meetings used to make her feel sick and it took her days to recover from the one where she suggested having new hymnbooks.   As well as her own experiences, she is in close contact with other priests who have had similar experiences.  Her ordination training group have a secret facebook group and all too often her fellow priests are posting about appalling PCC meetings and their dread of meeting up with particular parishioners.

While she listens to what Neil has to say, Paula sees Zoe as a breath of fresh air, not just at St Augustine’s but across the deanery. She is younger than many of the other priests, and willing to experiment with different ideas.  She tells Neil that Zoe has mentioned a problem with a particular parishioner (who she has not named) and explains how difficult it is for a priest to move a church forwards when people refuse to listen and do their best to block progress. Neil knows that this is not a good representation of the situation, but he is unable to get this across to Paula.

What next?

Neil, Jack and Beth feel powerless to change things.  They do not have the training or experience to recognise bullying or how to deal with it.  In fact, none of them, not even Maria, have used the word bullying – instead they talk about problems or a relationship breakdown.

They wonder if they should speak to the archdeacon as the person above the area dean in the Church of England hierarchy. After Neil’s experience with Paula no one is keen.  Besides what could the archdeacon do?  Parish priests are responsible to the bishop and are almost autonomous in their own churches.  Even if the archdeacon were involved, there might be little he could do to change things. There are no clear procedures to follow.  The only official route through is the Clergy Discipline Measure which is reserved for serious misconduct and takes months if not years to process.

Each part of Maria’s story seems petty and trivial. It is only when viewed as a whole that it can be seen to be about bullying.

Although Maria is not involved, church life has moved on and there seems no noticeable difference to church fellowship. The pastoral care side of things seems to be carrying on smoothly under new management.  The new worship patterns have become established and the coffee time afterwards seems as pleasant and friendly as ever.  Perhaps everyone needs to draw a line and move on.

Although all seems well, the church is living dangerously.  If Zoe has got her own way through bullying once, it’s likely that this isn’t a one off.  She will probably bully again.  Who will be next?  What impact will this have on the church?    Is Zoe going to be someone who bullies anyone who disagrees with her – or will she be a serial bully moving from one victim to the next?

A story like Maria’s Part 3: Support and impact: family, friends and community

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No man is an island, entire of itself; every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main. If a clod be washed away by the sea, Europe is the less… (John Donne 1572 -1631)

A story like Maria’s is an exploration of bullying in churches in six parts.  You can read Part 1 here: A story like Maria’s Part 1

So far we know little about Maria apart from her role as pastoral care leader and her love of dogs.  She could be single, married, divorced, straight, gay, childless, a parent, working, retired, solitary or company loving.  At the moment all the possibilities are open but if we are going to look at the impact her experience has on her and on others, she can’t remain a one dimensional character.

Family: Maria is married to Peter and they have two children in their early twenties. None of them are involved with the church. Her son is at uni, her daughter has just started her first job.  At first, Maria does not tell them about her problems with Zoe and they all become exasperated by her increasing vagueness as she goes over and over the situation in her mind wondering what to do next.  They are used to her listening when they tell her things: “Mum! I bowled three people in a row! It was a hat trick!”  “Then my boss said I needed to start the report again from scratch. I’m sure everyone was listening. It’s an open plan office…”

But as time goes on and Maria becomes increasingly unhappy, she has to tell them what has happened.

They are furious.  It isn’t just that Maria is so upset; what has happened is clearly wrong and is against their sense of justice.  They want to do something.  Anything.  Their suggestions range from writing a personal letter to the archbishop to her son saying he’s sure he has a mate who would be prepared to spray paint a word beginning with “B” on Zoe’s car.  Peter is determined to go round and tell Zoe just what he thinks of her.  It is an effort for Maria to persuade them that nothing they do will make any difference.

Her daughter is particularly incensed by Zoe’s remarks about clothes: “Mum, you look great in jeans and shirt.  If that orange and pink skirt is the one she wore for the fete I should think it gave all the old people migraines.”

They are also full of suggestions for what Maria should have done or what she should do now. Wearying though this might appear, their underlying love and concern makes a huge difference to how Maria feels about things.

Friends:  Clare is Maria’s closest friend at church and is on the pastoral care team.  Maria has been confiding in her all along and she has been offering prayer, support and advice.  She has not had much direct contact with Zoe, who has always been friendly and pleasant.  What has happened presents her with a dilemma.  She has enjoyed being on the pastoral care team with Maria, but it won’t be the same without her, especially as Clare knows what really happened. Does she want to continue?  Should she resign in support of Maria? But if she does resign, what will happen to the lonely and elderly people that she visits on behalf of the church?

Mike and Juliet are friends of both Peter and Maria. Neither of them are church goers but Mike has been interested in the dementia group. He thinks that this is just the sort of thing that the church should be doing.  His mother is at the beginning of dementia and after chatting to Maria he has persuaded her to join the local choir for people with dementia, which she loves. When they come round for supper, he is keen to share this with Maria and can’t understand her lack of enthusiasm; it isn’t long before Peter (with help from Maria) is telling them what has happened.  Mike and Juliet are incredulous; it all sounds so petty. What is more, from an outsider’s point of view, this is not how the church is supposed to be. Churches should not be places of bullying and broken relationships.  Juliet says it’s hypocritical since they’re supposed to be Christians.

Maria’s gifts lie with people, she is a friendly person and likely to have many more friends, all of whom need some kind of explanation as to what has happened.  What about the people she meets through her job in the library, dog walking or the Women’s Institute? The ripples spread outward…

Community: Zoe has told the PCC (the Parochial Church Council) that Maria is taking a break from her role for personal reasons. It seems that she expects the PCC members to pass this on to the rest of the church and to the community and they duly do so.  Zoe sees this as the end of the matter.  No one will question “personal reasons” for that would be gossip.  Effectively she sees Maria as “an island, entire of itself.”

Reality is not remotely like that. People talk. All the time.

For some it is just gossip. But for others who know Maria they want to be able to understand what is happening and offer help and support.

Several people decide that “personal reasons” probably means a potentially fatal illness for Peter or one of the children.  On his way home from the station, Peter encounters five people, all with sympathetic smiles, asking after his health.  Usually they just say hello or comment on the weather. He is completely baffled when after assuring them that he is fine they gently ask about his children…

Her friend Clare tells Maria that this is what Zoe has said and that people keep asking her what is happening.  What should she say?  Should she tell people what has happened – which reflects badly on the church? Or should she make something up – which would not be true?

In either case enough people know something for stories to be circulating.  Someone once described confidentiality as telling people one at a time.  A story like Maria’s cannot be kept secret.

Why doesn’t Zoe realise this? It may be that she has not got much experience of communities.  It may be that she lacks imagination. It may be that she thinks her authority is sufficient to keep it confidential.  Perhaps she has already moved on and has almost forgotten Maria or dismissed her as someone who no longer has any importance.

Eventually people will talk about something else. But damage will have been done; Maria’s story will be considered as evidence of how the church is, both for those who go and for those who don’t.